I woke up at four this morning, wide awake, after a disturbing dream. I woke up the same way yesterday, only not as early. It's enough to make me not even want to sleep. of course, by 7:00, when it was time to leave the house, I craved a nap, and if I had put my head down at all I would have been a no-show. Not that anyone except the SCM and the Colleague would have noticed.Maxx came to school with me today, which made for some odd moments, since I was then working at a teeny desk with two computers on it. I had forgotten Maxx's mouse at home, and kept grabbing the PC mouse because it was right there, and nothing would happen and I would remember that I had to use the touchpad. Maxx gets no Internet at school, so I had to use the PC for that. It was the highlight of my work day.
After school I went for a manicure, and I could barely keep my head up. I wish I could tell you what I've been doing since then (instead of writing my entry), but other than talking to K on the phone for a half hour or so, I have no idea. It's that kind of day.
She's coming in tomorrow for the weekend, so it's a trip to the train station to pick her up for potentially the last time. One more taking her back on Monday and then, I hope, I'm done with that place for a good, long time, if not forever. That would be something. This station was built when I was in college in Maryland, and my father would do the ferrying then so I could get the train back and forth to school. And then R had a boyfriendc down there, and we would take her so she could visit him (or pick him up) and then K for the last four years going to school in D.C. I've got a lot of connections there, not all good, most that I won't miss. Keep your fingers crossed for this really being the end.
It's about twenty to eight; I want to go to sleep nooooooooooow. But I don't want to wake up at 2:00. It's the razor's edge.
